Any negative feeling we cannot talk about, any feeling we believe we
cannot experience increases in strength and power over us until we learn to love
it to death. Excerpted from LOVING Hatred to Death ENDS Hatred (Article)
HERE IS EXAMPLE OF MY OWN HONEST SELF-TALK
I have been writing this blog full time for seven years.. I am now approaching 400,000 pageviews which means thousands of people have visited my blog and read many of my original inspirational articles. In spite of my best writing efforts, in spite of giving people my very best, the number of people who have left comments or made a small donation in support of the time and energy it takes to write my articles and make them available to people, free of charge, has been next to nothing.
The last donation I received was a $5.00 donation. I received that donation over two months ago. You would think with close to 1,000 pageviews a day, I would get at least one kind comment or one small donation a day but that rarely happens.
What has happened because my inspirational writings have gone largely unappreciated is that without being fully conscious about it I have developed tremendous resentment toward people who read my articles and give me nothing back in return. It is not their fault, it is my fault. It is my fault believing that if I gave people my best efforts, free of charge, my efforts would be rewarded by people who were grateful for the insights and wisdom I freely share with them. The reason I am publicly apologizing for my resentment is not so much for your benefit as it is for mine.
I want to be able to continue to write and post inspirational articles on this blog but I DO NOT, I repeat, I DO NOT want to continue to feel resentful because I attract people who either cannot afford to support my writings with a small donation or who do not appreciate the time and effort it takes to freely give away to others the wisdom I've learned that has made life easier for me.
I certainly do not want to continue to feel resentful towards the ungrateful people I attract to my blog because feeling resentment does not feel good to me and goes against the work I am currently doing with myself which is to love myself unconditionally, no matter what.
As hurtful as it has been to not receive the appreciation and donations I expected to receive, I learned a HUGE, HUGE lesson and it is this:
EXPECTATIONS HAVE ZERO VALUE EXCEPT TO CAUSE UPSET...
This cartoon courtesy of Mini and Eunice In return for its use, out of gratitude and appreciation, I gave them a $10.00 donation
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