I Forgive Myself By Monika Laschkolnig (Very Inspirational)

Reprinted with permission

I FORGIVE MYSELF

I forgive myself
For having made all the mistakes
Had I known better, I would have chosen differently
So I forgive myself


I forgive myself
For having felt hurt when I didn’t feel loved and wanted
They never promised me they would, so it was just my unmet expectation
So I forgive myself


I forgive myself
For believing them when they said I’m unworthy
They didn’t see my light and spoke out of their shadows
So I forgive myself


I forgive myself
For feeling scared and getting hurt when they acted out of anger
I know now it was not about me – it was their inability to cope with life better
So I forgive myself


I forgive myself
For the suffering when I felt I don’t belong
It made me journey inwards and find my spirit, my true home
So I forgive myself


I forgive myself
For feeling let down
They did what they believed was ok – my hurt came from what I wanted from them
So I forgive myself


I forgive myself
For having believed that my love is worthless
My love is precious – but they were too hurt to open up to it
So I forgive myself


I forgive myself
For having learnt not to love myself
I accepted it was right not to care about myself, but now I know who I am
So I forgive myself


I forgive myself
For taking things as directed against me
They were just events that took place because the doers were not happy with their life
So I forgive myself


I forgive myself
For having given my power away, letting them decide for me
I felt fear or didn’t know better, but now I’m ready to learn
So I forgive myself


I forgive myself
For having expressed hurtful judgments of myself, which made me judge others too
I’ve finally tasted the sweetness of love over the bitterness of the critique-poison
So I forgive myself


I forgive myself
For believing I’m unable, I’m small, I don’t count
I allow myself to acknowledge the truth that I have gifts and I’m worthy
So I forgive myself


I forgive myself
That it took me so long to learn to forgive
But I was willing to learn
So now I forgive and start to respect myself


- Monika Laschkolnig

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